You see, years ago I had an anonymous blog that I wrote during a time when I was very self-destructive and frankly, self-absorbed. In fact, the self-important side of me likes to tell people I had a blog before blogging was a trend.
So although I do look back on that blog and accept it for representing who I was at the time, and I can acknowledge that I like some of the writing, it has left me with a sort of distaste for blogging. I've been working very hard the last few years to be more positive and to be more of service to others, so I didn't want to fall into something that made me get caught up in my ego at that level again.
However, I've been told that people have enjoyed the little I have written here and are wondering when I will write some more. Those new to Flamenco, say they see it as useful, that I've helped them understand a little more about what we Flamencos do and why we're so into it. Some have told me I have also helped them to understand what they're looking at when they're watching a performance. So o.k., you nudge, I move.
Here and now I set my blogging intentions. I will write regularly and from the heart. It will mainly be about Flamenco: things I've learned along the way, tips, my process, artists I like, my take on the art form, etc. It will also include other things in my life because Flamenco informs much of my life, just like much of my life informs my Flamenco.
In fact, Flamenco is what saved me from that former self.
Don't get me wrong, my Flamenco experience has not been all rosas y lirios*. I'll probably write about that too. What I am saying is that the transcendental nature of Flamenco, which has survived from ancient roots, helped me to transcend and grow as well.
I am a happier and more positive person thanks to the art of Flamenco--even if I do like to perform the sad and angry stuff. I hope that by sharing the joy that Flamenco brings to me, I can help bring a little joy into the lives of my students, colleagues, friends, family, audiences, and to you dear reader.
*Roses and Irises--Reference to a traditional Alegrias lyric that, loosely translated says, "When you walk...roses and irises spill in your path".